Something happened while living in the ashram in India 1988 that my guru awakened in me. I was 24 years old and I was newly separating from a cult situation. In the early days of deciding to leave I was confused by all of the different advice I heard from friends. I was also anxious that the cult leader would convince me I am bad or wrong to leave. I know I was experiencing a lot of pain by staying but was fearful of the pain of leaving.
One evening during a question and answer session with our guru in the ashram hall, I bravely stepped up to the forum beside my guru and asked him “What is the truth? My mind tells me so many things but they are opposing each other. I am confused and anxious in making a decision. Please tell me the truth, which voice is telling me the truth?”
He listened carefully as if he heard me through the spaces between the words of my heart. He heard me slowly spit out the yearning of my soul for freedom. He said “You want to know which voice is speaking truth. Each voice speaks a view or a perspective… but who are you? Who speaks each voice? You are the truth, your voices do not speak truth. Voices and perspectives are changing but you do not change. You are unchanging. Who are you? You are the unchanging observer, the one who watches those changing voices and perspectives. You are the power that can stand back, observe and remain free while listening to your minds many perspectives. What is the truth? The truth is you are the free one who is able to observe and remain free while those voices talk to each other.”
That night my mind was blown. I honestly could not mentally grasp what he had said to me. I knew this was something I needed to understand and practice. I wanted the truth, but was focused on the chatter of my mind. I was stuck and confused because I believed every voice that told me something. My heart longed for a way out of pain and confusion. Now I was given a way out by becoming the watcher of those voices. Wow! That’s the key! The truth is I am the watcher of many voices.
How did this help me with my decision to leave the cult? Energetically it gave me the detachment power to not believe my conflicting voices or other people’s advice. It stopped the energy leaks from entertaining those thoughts. My attention, now released from conflicting thoughts was able to focus on feeling, listening and observing from a deeper place inside me. I felt my vibration rise and become clearer. I was beginning to vibrate at a higher speed of consciousness, a speed closer to stillness where I experienced peace with a sense of perfection. This peace and perfection could not be experienced while I believed and entertained every thought, voice and perspective of my mind or the advice of others. I was able to leave the cult situation with the strength of truth behind me. That truth didn’t say this is right, this is wrong. That truth simply showed me that I am free.
Since then, now 30 years later, I have learned that it is I who created and manipulates my thoughts. I have also learned that I can consciously choose to place my attention on the space or stillness between thoughts. This space or gap is called Divine Presence or Truth.
I practice daily with this power of truth behind me. My soul is happier every day because I keep my commitment to freedom from thoughts, offering it all to the Divine Presence.
Now I’d like to offer you some gifts as my guru did for me. Find out what stops you from getting freedom from your conflicting thoughts and what can take you to unity consciousness or Divine Presence. Watch this video Anxiety and Your Souls Agreement to prepare for a sacred journey with the Divine. Learn about an ancient prayer mantra that you can sing daily. This prayer will help you raise and maintain your energy frequency to be able to live in true consciousness if sung daily.
Audio Upanishad Acapella prayer and Audio Upanishad Prayer with Guitar have the power of guru, the bringer of light or the dispeller of darkness. Practice with your heart and learn to discern untrue voices in your head and the true watcher of those voices.
I am in the process of creating more gifts of wisdom for you. Stay tuned for more knowledge and practices to overcome your mental status, physical illnesses, emotional blocks and spiritual challenges while walking your path to the light. May you benefit greatly from my gifts. May the light be with you always.
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